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Caged BirdWhat is love
if it can't be free?
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They walk among us
everywhere we go
People who love others
of their own gender.
They screen their love
making it their secret,
and cast it off
to the dark shadows within.

They are not free
Fear clutches their hearts and souls
These people, just like us
They are forced to hide within themselves
unable to be who they want to be

We say they are different
But can you tell me,
HOW?
Love is the feeling of tender affection for someone
regardless if that someone is of the same or opposite sex
Love is love no matter which way you decide to see it:

Heterosexual, Bisexual, Homosexual
What is the diff

Silent screamsShe hides behind her pretty smile
When shes surrounded by pain all the while
Suffering and dismay she never wanted it this way
Shes never forgotten what happened that cold day
Looking in the mirror as a tear falls from her eye
Cause she knows what shes looking at is a lie
That sweet little girl she use to be
Is drawning in a sea of misery
Black roses fill the air a heart full of despair
Eyes full of fear loved one no longer held dear
Silent screams of a heart that no longer heals
Broken shards of a love that she no longer feels
She comes from a place no one ever wants to be
A child surrounded by a broken family
Beside a bed watc

ParanoiaParanoia.

I don't want to be this way.

But I can't help but feel this way.

No matter what you do

Or what comforting words you say.

My over active mind will not allow me to believe it.

My weary blood shot eyes will not allow me to see it.

Even though my attentive heart is able to receive it.

My thoughts and my imagination will corrupt and deceive it.

And that's why no matter how much I love you.

For some reason I will always feel cheated.

So please don't blame yourself because you have done more than enough.

You have proven yourself and have provided me with so much love.

There are only so many false accusations you can take.

The

HateI hate you
because I love you
I hate you
because you were my friend
I hate you
because I trusted you
I hate you
because you left
I hate myself
For letting you go

In the heart you will beYou light up my day
brighten my life
we're not together
but in the heart you will always be

Beautiful you are
an angel from the sky
a world full of light
as you stepped into my life

Roses so pure
love so innocent
A world so fake
but our love was fate

My love for you will stay
always within my heart
cause deep down
you mean the world to me

Hope you know. Hope You Know

I hope you know I loved you.
every single day.
And always wished you the best
in every prayer that I'd say.

I hope you know you're special
and no one can contest.
And that you are unique
and quite simply the best.

I hope you know you're strong
and dont let things break you down.
That you may stand your ground
but remember to be a clown.

I hope you remember to smile
and think of tomorrow as new.
That you never let your past
be something too painful to review.

I hope you are a gentleman
and act like you were raised.
Surpass every expectation
and never let your mind be fazed.

I hope you know you're talented
a

This Song (My Heart)I do not know all the right words
To say just how I feel.
If I did, I would simply stumble over them,
Clumsily, awkwardly … or not at all.

It has been too long since I really
Felt something
For anyone at all.
The same old cliché …

Except for the fact, you see,
That I am so afraid
Of melting into someone again …
Losing myself and not seeing what is really going on around me.

You could so easily
Allow me to do that.
You seem to care so much …
And yet, I fear …

When you leave, was it a dream?
Will you go your own way
And forget the moments we shared,
Never to return again?

It is a piece of me
Yo

HopeHope is just the lies
I tell myself
Hope tells me tomorrow
Will be better then today
So I don't cry myself to sleep
Hope whispers that next time
I'll do things right
When I only make it worse
Hope says that everything will be alright
When I know it won't be
Hope promises that there is a perfect
Person for me and that one day
I'll find that person
Hope shouts that one day
I'll do great things
And will always be rememebered
So that I'll never truely die
Hope sings of a better place
When there isn't one
Hope mocks that it could be worse
But most of the time
I'd do anything to not be me
Hope is merely a lie
But that's oka

ReleasedI was chained tightly up
In my own bitter thoughts
Of endless pain and misery
Dreams filled with death

You released me

***

In your arms I fall
And forget myself again
Bitter thoughts disappear
When you gently hold me

***

My heart will be
Yours to carry for
As it'll wither away
By the day you are gone

I never felt this real

***

You made me whole forevermore

They've All Left Before, But I Need You...Do you know what a perfect day for me would be?
For one, I would be able to spend it with you,
Just doing nothing in particular,
Maybe we'd sit and listen to music,
And I'd let you pet my hair and play with me…
Maybe we'd go to the park and draw,
And I would give up because you're better,
And you would laugh and poke fun…
Maybe we'd go to the mall,
Or you're house,
Or wherever…anywhere…would be a perfect day…if it involved you…

Because when you smile it lights me up,
When you play with me, I never want you to stop…
When you sing, I swear there's nothing sweeter or more calming…
And when yo

First KissI look at you, I'm nervous as hell, hoping against hope that you'd kiss me.
The empty street, the soft porch light, your hazel eyes are all I can see.

You lean down slowly, gently, letting your soft lips brush against mine.
You do it again, again, and again... We completely lose track of the time.

On my toes, your fingers lost in my hair, my body moulding to fit yours perfectly.
You kiss my neck, my heart hammers away, your lips tasting like heaven to me.

I was eighteen and never been kissed, until you came along, weakening my knees.
With you it was perfect, as it should be... Would you kiss me once more, please?

~C♡

FrustrationI just want to bang my head against the wall,
and let the scars rebleed,
I'm trying to heal myself,
but never succeed.

Every word is hidden behind the secret sets of stone,
What I really mean is mine,
and mine to know, alone.

I can never be happy,
I can never be free,
I can never love someone meant just for me,
I can never exist without loving someone,
Who can never love me in return....

I just want to break every glass, every mirror, memories passed,
And every picture,
I just want to scream so loud,
that you'll be astounded,
and you'll never know,
that I can never be happy,
I can never be free,
I can never love someone th

CagedHave you ever been locked in a cage?
I have.
Dog crates can be unlatched from the inside.
I can pop out ceiling tiles over an equiptment cage.
With determination, I can scale a barbed wire fence.
Every physical cage I have been in, I've found a way out of.

But not all cages are physical.
For years I was trapped in a cage called Abuse.
Through fear and "respect", I was unable to fight.
Another cage layer was depression.
With time they were unlocked
By an unknown keeper of keys.

There is one cage today
That still locks me tight.
It wards away hugs, and kisses, and love.
For years I have tried to break out
Of this cage some say I

Love poemYour laugh is contagious
so preppy and happy
I get so giggly
will you laugh with me?

So pretty is your complexion
with skin so lovely
so soft and peachy
all I know is your oh so pretty

I came to you
came to your rescue
like superman
I saved you

next I knew, you shun me
am I just a cast away?
I'll swim to shore
show you I'll be there for you

she broke my heart
is this what I'v become?
a worthless piece of shit?
am I just a no one?

I cry
tears streaming down
my cheeks flush red
why do I still care?

she broke my heart
smashed it to smithereens
she never cared
but I still do

FriendFinally I can see
Really see your heart
It is so big and beautiful
Even with all your defects
No one can replace you
Don't ever change

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to feel...

by ~kaiteaidea, Oct 2, 2012, 7:47:16 AM
Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

To feel someone's arms around me,
To feel a kiss, passionate, and deep,
To curl up together as we sleep.

Hearing your heart beat as i lay on your chest,
Holding you close, forget the rest,
Being happy with each other, no less.

Walking hand in hand down the street,
Not caring about the opinions of who sees,
Knowing despite what the world believes,
This love is real between you and me.

This is the simple happiness of my dreams,
Nothing extravagant, just having my love with me.
I don't have much hope left,
but i hope this will come to be.

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*skyeyedangel Oct 7, 2012

i like this poem very much it resembles how i feel many times thanks for such a great thought to be shared

~kaiteaidea Oct 10, 2012 Hobbyist General Artist

Your welcome, and thank you for your comment and facing of this writing.

~NekoNinja13 Oct 2, 2012

very nice, if you are at all possible to you may want to do a "to feel..." about saddness, but itis onl a suggestion, please dont do it if you dont want to, and or if you dont want to think of the negitives

~kaiteaidea Oct 10, 2012 Hobbyist General Artist

It sounds like something I would write, who knows it may happen. N thank you for the comment and faving

~AngelicaRose24 Oct 2, 2012

I know exactly how that feels....

~Uncle-R Oct 2, 2012

Very expressive. And quite close to how I feel right now. Love it, thanks!

~kaiteaidea Oct 10, 2012 Hobbyist General Artist

Thank you

~Louise-1 Oct 2, 2012

This is very sweet. I like it.

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