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The rage builds over time.
It slowly takes over,
my mind, the pain, sadness, anger.
It makes me sound like a "hater."
I know I'm not this negative person,
and all these "excuses" aren't good reasons.
I'm so tired of being the one to blame.
Having this rage feels like I'm holding a flame.
It burns and hurts me deep inside.
All I want to do is scream and cry.
I used to be so strong,
now all I'm told, all I feel is,
"I'm always wrong."
i can only take this for so long.
Are my tears and rage that amusing,
that you keep pushing me to watch the bruising,
to watch me fall apart from the inside out,
til I'm left with nothing, anger, pain, and doubt?
My anger consumes all that's around me.
People waiting to betray me is all I ever see.
I keep all this negativity hidden deep inside,
until it boils over leaving no where to hide.
I do it all to protect the few friends I have left.
My anger makes me so unbearable
to people and friends it must be incomparable.
Why must my anger be so much,
scaring away everyone's warm touch?
I try not to be like this,
but everyone know I'll have these fits.
Depression, anger, doubt,
I have no way to let it out.
All it does is push everyone away.
I'm afraid I'll be completely alone one day.
The anger will have won,
leaving no friends, no one.
Who is brave or stupid enough
to last long enough for me to love me?
It slowly takes over,
my mind, the pain, sadness, anger.
It makes me sound like a "hater."
I know I'm not this negative person,
and all these "excuses" aren't good reasons.
I'm so tired of being the one to blame.
Having this rage feels like I'm holding a flame.
It burns and hurts me deep inside.
All I want to do is scream and cry.
I used to be so strong,
now all I'm told, all I feel is,
"I'm always wrong."
i can only take this for so long.
Are my tears and rage that amusing,
that you keep pushing me to watch the bruising,
to watch me fall apart from the inside out,
til I'm left with nothing, anger, pain, and doubt?
My anger consumes all that's around me.
People waiting to betray me is all I ever see.
I keep all this negativity hidden deep inside,
until it boils over leaving no where to hide.
I do it all to protect the few friends I have left.
My anger makes me so unbearable
to people and friends it must be incomparable.
Why must my anger be so much,
scaring away everyone's warm touch?
I try not to be like this,
but everyone know I'll have these fits.
Depression, anger, doubt,
I have no way to let it out.
All it does is push everyone away.
I'm afraid I'll be completely alone one day.
The anger will have won,
leaving no friends, no one.
Who is brave or stupid enough
to last long enough for me to love me?
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I need you.
A day without you is like a day without the sun,
nothing is bright, everything is glum.
And when you left, walked through that door,
everyone knew why I wasn't smiling anymore.
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Let Me Know
If you love me, let me know
I don't mean to beg
But please don't let me go
If you don't want me, tell me now
I'll be able to handle it
Even if I don't know how
If you don't want to see me, give it to me straight
I'll walk out of your life
But I'll never forget your face
If you want my friendship, don't be afraid to ask
I'm willing to move forward
The rest is in the past
Just let me know what it is you want
And I'll be happy to do so
To me your happiness means so much
I'm willing to let you go
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First Impressions
I remember the first time I met her
a tower of books tucked under her chin
glasses sliding down her nose
that she wiggled like a hare's
I helped her carry the tower
to her brother's truck
him ever so persistent to return home
and her just happy to escape into literature
she slumped into the seat
the tower resting at her bare toes
she stuck out her hand
and told me her name
and laughed at the common of it
she would be a freshman after summer
same as me
her brother still urgent
had the engine roar to life
and drive away
her hand waving at me
with a broad smile bubbling over
that danced for me
and all I could think was
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thoughts on my anger "issues"....i keep things bottled up so much til they just explode....
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